Happy Monday, friends!
I’m incredulous that the 2018/2019 school year starts this Wednesday! I mean it’s not even the middle of August yet!
Such is the nature of life! In constant flux and movement. Which is why it’s so important to practice being present for each and every moment of life. The days can seem so long, but the years fly by on wings. I so clearly remember my son’s first day of pre-school. This week, he begins his senior year!
Change is inevitable. We can’t control it. We can’t fast forward or rewind. Our only sane, viable option is to embrace every single precious second as it unfolds, exactly as it is. As it is. Not how it should be. Or could be. But as it is.
Therein lies our greatest challenge and truest pathway to happiness.
To embrace life in all of its glory and misery, pleasure and pain, love and fear, belief and doubt, failure and success. All of it!
Sure, I could play the game of beating myself up for every mistake I made in raising my son. Or fast forward and suffer in anticipation of next year when he leaves for college. I’m really, really good at both!
But I see that these patterns of thinking create suffering for myself. And I remember that I really have no reason to suffer. And I definitely don’t enjoy it anymore.
And I remind myself that I’ve been in training for the past 17 years in the beautiful and brutal art of letting go. From the day he was born, I had to let go of having him all to myself within my body.
When I stopped breast feeding, I had to let go of being his main source of nourishment.
When I went back to work.
When he moved from his crib to his big boy toddler bed then later his loft/bunk bed.
Watching that tiny little boy walk into first grade all on his own, getting swallowed up into the crowd of much bigger kids.
His first sleepover at a friend’s house.
First time he closed off from me and didn’t need me to fix it.
Graduating from elementary school and starting middle school.
First day of high school.
First time he drove my car (I’m still traumatized by that one).
And now … senior year begins.
And I remind myself, this is all part of the training. And how it’s helped me so much in life.
It’s strengthened and conditioned me. Learning to release and let go of so many things. Learning to let go even when I’m not ready, because it’s time.
So I have one more year to train for the inevitable. And I remind myself that if I’ve done my job well as a parent, he will fly away with confidence and have all the tools he needs for success.
Sigh. Good luck to all of you parents out there! We got this!