Happy Wellness Wednesday, friends!
I have strayed away from my practice convinced that it was not going to bring the freedom I need from the perfectionism mindset I held. I think the idea of losing faith in our practice is something we all can relate to in times of emotional stress that turns very physical. In these times we often hear the advice to just “show up” because “that’s 90% of your practice”. So that is exactly what I did. I forced myself to simply show up on my mat despite my racing thoughts and visceral sensations with no expectation to what my practice should or should not be.
Our ability to step onto our mat in a vulnerable state can bring us great courage to sit with the intense sensation we are experiencing. This may be the most important step as we accept ourselves to feel raw and fresh all at the same time. As I lied on my mat, convinced coming to a class was a bad idea, I felt reassured when a teacher I adore so much had said, “This time of year brings us so much pressure to be perfect. Why be perfect when we can be good? I mean real good”.
Despite our best attempts to use the tools of mindfulness and emotional balance, sometimes we find ourselves again, trapped by the web of our own thoughts, locked behind the prison bars of unnecessary worry, expectation and judgement upon ourselves. The thoughts run themselves so intensely that we stand still fully aware of the storm that implodes as we feel no control over the momentum that occurs.
It is important to remind ourselves that we intend not to be perfect, to not be too selfless. Now, this doesn’t mean we do not strive to be our personal best. It just simply means we must accept that there is no such thing as perfection- especially with the ebb and flow of life. Many of us strive to be this idea of perfect. We take on extra responsibilities, other’s worries, we develop an all or nothing mindset and invest energy where it is not necessary with the intention of doing good by helping others and growing ourself. All to often we run ourselves depleted. It is essential that we detach and view our life to see that no one is strictly judging to see whether we are perfect or not except ourself. But sometimes the idea of perfectionism is ingrained to our core from our years growing up. We can now choose to let go of the idea of performing under the approval of someone just as we can choose to experience life as fun and free from resistance.
Our attempt to hold on to this idea of perfection may only cause frustration and unhappiness as we resist against what is. When we decide to live life without regret, we can strive to the best of our ability. We can feel satisfied in our efforts regardless how strictly others perceive our outcome. Instead, we can rest in the warm arms of our practice to reassure we can be good, real good.